if you’ve ever laughed while falling apart, you’re in the right place. stories that touch your soul, not because they’re warm & fluffy, but because they hold up a mirror to the real you. the one behind the brave face.

the bookshelf for women who’ve been holding it all together. the women who’ve held it together in public and fallen apart in private, then still made dinner. stories that make you laugh, cry, wince, and feel seen, all in the same chapter. choose the book that’s calling you in. come as you are. i’ll do the mirror, you do the courage.

here's sneak peak at what you get.

BHBM BOOK 819x1024

becoming her.
becoming me.

a memoir-meets-self-help journey through resilience, heartbreak, and grief. for the woman who lost herself trying to be everything to everyone, then chose herself anyway.

HBH BOOK 819x1024

hot, bothered
& hilarious.

hot flushes. mood swings. brain fog. if your body’s started doing things without your consent, welcome. part survival guide, part comedy special, part “thank god it’s not just me.”

LA40 BOOK 819x1024

love after 40. rules
of modern dating.

chemistry | connection | compatibility | communication | consistency. the unfiltered truth about what it really takes to date in the modern world.
coming late 2026.

becoming her. becoming me.

BHBM_BOOK

this isn’t just my story. it’s yours, too.

a memoir-meets-self-help journey of resilience, heartbreak, grief, and the slow, brave return to the woman you were always meant to be.

becoming her, becoming me isn’t just another memoir. it’s a mirror. for every woman who contorted herself just to be chosen. who wore strength like armour and smiled for the world, then cried behind closed doors. who ticked all the boxes but still felt unfinished. who played the part so well, she forgot it was a performance.

every woman has a story she doesn’t tell because she was too busy surviving it.

this book tells mine. but it’s stitched with pieces of yours.

what the book holds.

  • the dreams we delayed.
  • the selves we abandoned.
  • the lessons we learnt too late.
  • the moment we finally whispered: enough.

this isn’t about a perfect ending. it’s about the slow, brave return to the girl we were before the world told us who to be.

this book won’t give you answers. but it will hold your hand through the questions. it will sit with you in the ache. in the undoing. in the unbecoming. and maybe, just maybe, in the becoming.

who this is for.​

this book is for you if you have ever:

  • held it together in public and fallen apart in private.
  • lost yourself in love, work, grief, or survival.
  • kept going while quietly breaking.
  • whispered “enough” and meant it.
  • wanted permission to come back to yourself, properly.

what you’ll take from it:

  • the feeling of being seen without being fixed.
  • language for what you’ve been carrying.
  • perspective that turns survival into meaning.
  • the reminder that you’re not behind, you’re becoming.

available in paperback, hardback, and kindle.

about the author.

azalea tailor shares her story with unflinching honesty. from the roots of family and identity, through toxic love and devastating loss, to the moment she finally whispered “enough.”

hot, bothered & hilarious. becoming her again.

HBH_BOOK

a menopause survival guide that’ll make you laugh, cry, and possibly pee a bit.

hot flushes. mood swings that could flatten a small nation. memory lapses that leave you wondering if you’ve lost the plot, or just your car keys.

if your body has started doing things without your consent… this is the book for you.

menopause doesn’t knock. it storms in, kicks over your serotonin, steals your sleep, and demands snacks. this isn’t a pause. it’s your becoming.

welcome to the club.

  • if you have ever googled “is this normal?” at 3:17 a.m.
  • cried because your toast burnt.
  • forgotten your own postcode.
  • sweated through a zoom call.
  • or wondered if you’re genuinely losing your mind.

congratulations. you’re one of us. welcome to the club no one applied for, but every woman eventually joins.

written by azalea (the pen) and ivy (the chaos), hot, bothered & hilarious is part survival guide, part comedy special, and part group therapy with women who actually get it.

who this is for.​

this book is for you if:

  • your body has started freelancing without your permission.
  • you’ve cried over something tiny and then cried again because you cried.
  • you’ve forgotten what you were saying mid-sentence and tried to play it cool.
  • you constantly wonder if you’ve lost the plot.
  • you want to laugh, feel seen, and stop thinking it’s just you.

inside you’ll find:

  • hot flushes that deserve a hazard rating.
  • brain fog that erases entire conversations.
  • friendship glow-ups and dramatic exits.
  • dating disasters, dry spells, and zero-f*cks given awakenings.
  • confidence comebacks that feel like rebirth.

available in paperback and kindle.

about the author.

written by azalea tailor (the pen) and ivy bloom (the chaos). two women. one very real experience. zero sugar-coating.

love after 40. the new rules of modern dating.

LA40 BOOK

chemistry | connection | compatibility | communication | consistency.

what modern dating really takes.
dating used to start with butterflies. now it starts with wi-fi. and if the wi-fi’s down, so is your love life. this is a map through the modern maze. the swipes. the sparks. the silences. the starts that never started. written for anyone who still believes in connection, but refuses to lose themselves trying to find it.

the second act of love:
they say love gets easier with age. I’ve yet to meet whoever they are – but if you do, send them my way. somewhere between the first heartbreak and a midlife crisis, dating stopped being simple. the world changed. the rules changed. we changed. dating after forty is a strange kind of brave. you’re not wide-eyed anymore, but you’re not cynical either. your intuition’s sharper, your boundaries clearer. your heart knows what it’s not settling for. this isn’t about chasing youth. it’s about using experience as your edge.

what this book is & isn’t.​

this book is for you if you want to:

  • decode the madness without losing yourself in it.
  • date with self-respect, clarity, and humour.
  • spot almost-love quickly and walk away faster.
  • keep your standards without becoming cold.
  • have some fun along the way.

this isn’t:

  • a rulebook that tells you to how play games.
  • a glossy manual written by someone who hasn’t dated in the real world in the last decade.
  • a “just be positive” pep talk that ignores reality.

who this is for.​

this book is for you if:

  • you’ve had enough of ghosting, breadcrumbing, and “seeing where it goes.”
  • you want a real connection, not endless chatting.
  • you have a life you like and you aren’t shrinking yourself to fit a stranger.
  • you know what you bring to the table, and you want someone who sits down, stays present, and eats properly.

inside you’ll find:

  • profile psychology – your profile isn’t who you are,  it’s who you choose to introduce first.
  • the importance of the first swipe – you never get a second chance to make a first impression. especially when it’s made through a screen.
  • flirting, the lost art of play– flirting isn’t manipulation. it’s communication – just with better lighting.

want early access? you’ll get the launch date, early chapters, and pre-order links before the internet gets its hands on them.

what people are saying about azalea's writing.

Juicy Sushie
Juicy Sushie
a vibrant memoir that echoes your inner doubts and celebrates self-discovery.
i took immense enjoyment in reading this deeply poignant memoir. azalea tailor’s storytelling is vibrant, vivid, and emotionally resonant. reading it felt like watching a film unfold in my mind. every chapter was alive with imagery, honesty, and reflection. as someone of Indian origin, many of tailor’s experiences brought back memories from my own childhood. I found several powerful parallels with my own life, particularly in navigating identity, cultural expectations, and the quiet weight of self-doubt and imposter syndrome. It was both moving and reassuring to realize that those internal battles are not faced alone - there’s comfort in shared experience, and tailor captures that beautifully. highly recommend this book which is not just a personal story. it’s a mirror for anyone who’s ever questioned their worth, molded themselves to fit in, or felt lost while trying to become everything to everyone. It’s a heartfelt and empowering read that speaks directly to the parts of us that need healing and validation.
neelam
neelam
a reality and sense of how strong women truly are when it comes down to surviving.
this book has shone a light on the many dimensions to growing up as a female in an asian environment that for many would not have been as fortunate to experience the love, laughter and strong family legacy this woman was lucky to have. her sheer determination, guts and respect illustrate that despite her vulnerability a woman will pick herself up and reinvent herself into a better person every time! the stories are real and somewhere in the midst of messages the writer has conveyed you will find a special one that means something to you as you reflect on your life, the people you met on your life journey and those who are still with you. enjoy the book as it will make you smile, laugh and cry all at the same time.
anita pp
anita pp
a journey of courage.
becoming her, becoming me is a beautifully written love letter to a friend, weaving together the highs and lows of a story you thought you knew inside out. It explores the familiar yet profound journey of the eldest child carrying the weight of expectations, presenting a version of herself that is dependable and palatable. what shines through is her courage to reclaim what was always hers – her story, her truth, herself. this memoir is a celebration of resilience, self-respect and unapologetic self-love. It resonates deeply and leaves you grateful for the honesty and strength shared within its pages. bravo to azalea tailor for such inspiring first works. I cannot wait to read more from this author – it feels like she’s only just begun.
sheets
sheets
a real page-turner!
heartfelt, raw and relatable. azalea tailor in her own “stylish” way, writes on paper the unfiltered truth of family life and the many burdens women carry…her included. there will be moments, feelings, relationships or situations you will be able to relate. i smiled, chuckled and cried when i read this memoir, and by the end, you feel like you know her. reading her journey is intriguing and empowering! this author is bold and brilliant, and her lovely ‘final note’ is a way of making you feel…that you are too.
krishma
krishma
inspiring & powerful an absolute must read!
becoming her, becoming me is a deeply moving and powerfully written memoir by azalea tailor that takes readers on a raw, inspiring, and transformative journey through womanhood, healing, and self-discovery. more than just a life story, this book feels like sitting across from a friend as she opens up the pages of her past.
this is more than just a memoir it’s a manifesto for women everywhere who are ready to step into their power. an amazing read from start to finish, filled with heart, resilience, and hope. azalea tailor has given the world a gift, and her story will stay with you long after the last page.
tracy l
tracy l
a must-read
a must-read for anyone seeking meaningful personal growth! I felt a real connection from the start and couldn’t wait to read the next chapters. you can tell each and every word is written from the heart. reading this has made me realise that the best version of yourself is within reach. beautifully written, a book like no other. trust me… you won’t want to put it down.

becoming her. becoming me taster.

Loading PDF...

hot, bothered & hilarious taster.

Loading PDF...

love after 40. sample read.

Loading PDF...

join the list

want early access?
you’ll get the launch date, early chapters, and pre-order links before the internet gets its hands on them.

be the first to hear

we don’t do newsletters. we do updates worth opening. first access included.